The decisions we make

There's a Modest Mouse song that used to always get stuck in my head. It went:

          It's hard to remember we're alive for the first time. . . .It's hard to remember we're alive for the last time. . . .It's hard to remember to live before you die. . . .It's hard to remember that our lives are such a short time. . . .It's hard to remember when it takes such a long time. . . .It's hard to remember. . . .

Kyle told me he was okay to drive. He went, "You're more wasted than me. Plus I wouldn't want to get you in trouble."

The decisions we make.

I mean, I was really wasted too. It was so surreal. We're on the road and a split second later - BAM - we jump a median - BAM - we jump a curb.

And then there was this house.

And these sounds.

Splintered glass.

Broken bones.

Severed vains.

And that's all I know.

The decisions we make.

I'm gonna update my xanga. So here you go thousands of people who read my blog because it's so important you can't help yourself. If you want fantastic movie advice read further, brave soldier.

Here are some recent movies I have seen and my extraordinarily fantastic and important reviews of them:

Rachel Getting Married: Alright, this is an indie movie through and through. They even used the less glamorous camera/has the look of a camcorder esque look to it. And let's face it people anything other than that exact type of camera would have failed this movie! The mark of a true good movie is when it makes us feel a way we wouldn't in real life. Rachel Getting Married accomplishes this. Can you honestly say that in real life you'd feel bad for a chick addicted to drugs her whole life responsible for killing her little brother? No, liar, you would not. And no that's not a spoiler. You find this out quickly so don't cuss at me through the computer screen. But that's exactly what happens. Warning: tears will ensue. So don't go watch it with someone you feel the need to be a badass around, because you'll look like a little girl. Five stars my friends. A definite must check out. It's like an indie movie that can appeal to people who fail to see the awesomeness of indie movies.

The Lucky Ones: Don't let the title fool you. It's not as cheesy as it sounds. It's about 3 army vets...two who are on medical leave for 30 days and one who is out for good...who have a chance encounter on the plane ride home and when they arrive in New York they must share the last rental car available and drive cross country. It has very very little to do with the war...in fact the word Iraq isn't said once in this movie...and it has everything to do with the journey. Actors? For you Notebook fans it has Rachel McAdams. For you Crash fans it has Michael Pena. For you Shawshank Redemption fans it has Tim Robbins. Predictable? Fairly. Overwhelmingly happy ending? No. Good, solid movie? Yes. This movie has its moments and unless you're a movie prude you should check it out. And by movie prude I mean if you must absolutely dissect every movie to the point that the only ones you can find enjoyable at all are movies that end up on AFI's list of 100 great movies or whatever and just will not accept that any movie that is not on this list is not complete rubbish and is not necessarily not worth watching. My guess is that none of you are like this and are instead people who find movies like Ferris Bueller's Day Off a classic, can't resist the sappy yet endearing moments of The Notebook, enjoy Harry Potter for reasons you can't explain, and will never be able to resist the charm of The Lion King, even when you're 40. If this is you, then you will probably like this movie.

Miracle At St. Anna: This movie meets the just barely okay mark. Here's what is wrong with this movie: there's almost no part in the entire movie where music is not playing. I would really like to know what in the world the editor was thinking allowing the music editor to cover each shot with music. I mean, so many moments could have been so effective if there was just silence but no, there's music there. And it's not music that fits the scene either. We see this from the very beginning. It's bizarre. Not to mention it's extremely long (2 hours 40 min). Unneccessarily long. I respect Spike Lee as a director but he should have cut half of those scenes out. The pace is just far too slow and you find yourself looking at the clock wondering when it will end. About 20 minutes from the end it is good and exciting for 10 minutes then it lapses into cheesy nonsense that makes me want to rip my hair out. Twilight is less cheesy than the last scene of this movie and Twilight is cheesy on purpose. My recommendation: do not rent. The trailer makes this movie look awesome, and awesome it is not. The dvd says something like it's the next best thing since Saving Private Ryan! But it's lying.

So there you have it. I definitely think I should have my own movie review job where I write movie reviews for real people instead of how they do it now where critics write movie reviews for other critics and the audiences are like huh? Don't tell me how the juxtaposition between the cinematography and the intransient screenplay nonsense and just tell me it sucked and here's why.

You're welcome internet.

Sara

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I'm trying my very hardest to not lose my faith in good. It's hard when no one can be the person they say they'll be and when you yourself are included in that group. I had standards set for myself, I had rules, it seems I've broken them all and along the way left a trail of people I've hurt. I try not to feel too bad about it though. That's the way of life isn't it? We hurt each other. It's how we feel. You can't have only joy, there has to be pain. 

So I'm trying not to give up on you people. I wish you'd make it less difficult on me though, honestly. I feel like though it'll work itself out in the end and you're all just screwing everything up now so you can have happiness later.

I've had some shit happen recently that has been tough. I'm dealing though because what else can you do? You either have to deal or die and the latter isn't what I want. I was watching a movie today and the last thing they said summed up what I believe:

Ex malo bonum. 
{Out of bad comes good.}

Everything is so different since my days of constant xanga usage.

Thank god.

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wow, xanga, you kind of suck now. all fancy and shit, what's that about? anyway, i haven't updated this thing in about a million years so i thought i'd do that just to do it.

so how is life treating me? pretty damn good i must say. i've gotten into this comfortable routine. there's no shit to worry about or anything. i mean sometimes i worry about school, but i mean that's whatever. for someone who almost never goes to class i'm doing really well. other than that there's nothing. wrong, that is. see i've adopted this new attitude of  i don't give a shit. it really makes life grand. pretty much i care about my small circle of friends and other than that i don't give a shit. i have a bunch of acquaintances, sure. and if you know they're sad or whatever i'll care. but that's about the extent of it. with the exception of my close friends i could care less if anyone gets their feelings hurt by anything i do. and let me tell you, that makes life great. i've just stopped caring about stuff. and i think even my close friends realize that. if ever there's a problem it's almost always not big enough to take to me because i don't care. so they get over it and we go on. works great. i went through high school caring about everything and that just got me nowhere. want my advice? just say fuck it and fuck you. works like a charm.

let's see. movies i've seen recently. just saw across the universe last night. it kicked ass. i really enjoyed it. hmm, saw juno. very cute. i enjoyed awake a lot. cloverfield. that was a good one. i saw stay, also fantastic.i saw p.s. i love you. very good. i also watched silent hill which was dumb.

i went to gatlinburg. that was cool.

i'm going to toronto this summer. maybe bonnaroo. or lollapalooza. not sure. it'll be kick ass. i'm also getting an apartment soon-ish with my bud rachel and maybe leigh. good times shall be had.

so yeah, life has been treating me good. i had like one shitty month a couple of months ago and since then it's all been good.

so there you have it. i updated.